why aren't you doing your job?

i never asked zen exactly WHY he didn't think it was a "good idea" to assist me with finding a vehicle. why? because i'd ACTUALLY make you do your job, so i wouldn't require a ride from you or some other pca/ics worker anymore? or is it because your hours are cut along with fredrick's in order for me to display my independence- so i don't need as much assistance to live independently? he never told me EXACTLY why, so i'm basically allowed to assume anything. he just better hope that what i do with that assumption doesn't prevent him from stealing money from me by lying that my ics is ACTUALLY HELPING me progress with MY goals. i'm smarter than he or anyone else assumes. i know i remember reading in the 48 laws of power that a person is supposed to just let people think what they want and underestimate me- which EVERYONE and their mom does. so i shouldn't really have a problem with this and everyone thinks i'm crazy anyway to believe me when i say i'm not stupid. just by JUDGING WHERE I CAME FROM. people can't deny this shit because i know that's why amanda has in her mind i've got something mentally disabled with me going on. don't try to make yourself look better by taking your insecurities out on me, thinking if i look stupid- that'll make you look smart.